A Short Introduction

My name is Becca and I have a ton of notebooks. I’ve been keeping them fairly regularly for about nine years now. Sometimes I write a lot, but there have been times where I haven’t written very much at all. For the most part, these notebooks of mine work as a space where I can write down first drafts of fiction. I was pretty true to that for the first few years and then pieces of my life started slipping into them. I still use them mostly for fiction, but even in that I think I see a lot of my life in my stories. Whatever I’m struggling with or dealing with in my life is reflected back to me in the fiction that I was writing at the time. There are, of course, fragments of my actual life slipping through. Sometimes I will write down notes to myself so I don’t forget appointments or meetings or important class assignments. Sometimes I write down things that I need to get for other people. Sometimes I write down things I need to get for myself.

The first few notebooks mostly consist of me trying to figure out who I am going to be as a writer. I took a lot of things very, very seriously when I was eighteen years old. What eighteen year old doesn’t do that?

Later I struggle through stories I am working on, sometimes writing and rewriting the beginnings of stories over and over again until I finally give up on them. After that I learned that first drafts are called first drafts for a reason and I started just plowing through the stories. If the beginning isn’t exactly what I imagined it to be I have learned to think that I can fix it later in editing. Usually, my stories turn out the way that they were supposed to be anyway and the beginnings that I thought were so horrible only need a little bit of tweaking in the end.

I have been looking through these notebooks a lot lately. This is mostly because they are currently sitting in a box on my bedroom floor and I can’t avoid them. I want to figure out a way to reflect on them without taking up new notebook space rehashing moments that I already lived through or wrote. That is what this blog is for.

I have no intention of using this blog to write down every single thing that is in my notebooks. I want to use this space to reflect back on the things that I have written and what they mean to me now, or what they meant to me then. None of it will probably mean a thing to you, but that’s okay. If you read it and you like it, then good. If you don’t, then it doesn’t really matter because the things that I wrote down were for me at the time and they will continue to be for me regardless of the opinions of others.

I might not post on here every single day because if I did that I don’t think that I would have time to write anything new, but I’ll try to post with some kind of regularity. Overall, my hope for this blog is that other people can enjoy and appreciate what I am trying to do with the things that I create.